Goals

"There's nothing to be ashamed of when when you fail to do something great. When you go out on a limb, sometimes you fly and sometimes the limb breaks. Even if you end up lying on your back with branches poking your butt cheeks, at least you have a great view of the stars."

-Jennette Fulda

So here I am again basically at the beginning...again. 

Those of you who have struggled with weight can relate.  

I have had many successes in the weight loss arena. However, I never made the changes permanent. I take full responsibility for my actions. I am easily swayed. I am immature in this area of my life. I just think that it is unfair that I cannot eat whatever I want, when I want.  I have similar problems with money management. My sisters do  not seem to have the money management problem and only a few of us have the weight problems...so the problem isn't how I was raised.  

I would like to blame it on my ADD. I am naturally ADD. I am pretty sure I was born this way. It's a part of who I am now and for the most part I embrace it. Because of my ADD I see things most of you miss. I always see the sunset no matter how glorious or bland it is, no matter what else is going on around me. I see the colors and admire whatever visual blessing God has bestowed on us that day. If there were a shining diamond in the grass I would be the first to see it's glint.  I feel as I am in several different places at once. I might be cooking dinner, but my mind may be appreciating the newest Sam Hunt song and writing this blog all at the same time. I also have a unique ability to close everything else out. If I am reading or writing it is hard to get my attention. 

Because of these things, it is very hard for me to "diet." If someone has left cookies in the workroom for everyone, I will eat one and not even think about my resolve to get healthy.  I will curse myself after I remember my resolution 3/4 through the cookie, which is way past the point of stopping.

For the most part I enjoy working out. I am a natural athlete and I get frustrated that my n=body can no longer do what it once could. That needs to change.

So what is my starting point. Well I am technically obese. I hate that word... OHHHBEeeeeSE...It sounds like "Ole' Beast. The word in itself is an insult.

So since I don't know you, I am not going to put my numerical weight out there. You can follow me my progress by viewing this handy chart I created.

There is no rhyme or reason to this chart. These aren't equal intervals, and they don't mean anything besides small goals I want to hit along the way. So don't try to figure out my system...you never will.

Currently I am 7 pounds down from my highest weight ever.

Other than that I am currently decently healthy. I have a few health problems, but I will discuss all that in a later post.

So there you go. I am going to get healthy. I am going to lose weight.

As my friend RuthXXX used to say, "Carpe Diem!"

A Very ADD Entry Regarding My Life The Past Few Days....

The past week has been a wonderful surprise.  Beginning the second day on my thyroid medication, I woke up feeling better. I have more energy, and I have been able to get a tremendous amount of stuff done.

Could this have been my problem all along?  Definitely since I was 28 years old, I have felt bad. I slugged through life with little hope of feeling better and now here I am considerably healthy and happy.  Now at 41, I feel good again. Good enough to want to get out and do things and move, and finish things!!! I have taken only a handful of naps this week and none of them were the completely exhausted, dead-to-the-world-wake-up-groggy-and-feeling-worse type of naps. These were much shorter and I woke up feeling better!

I haven't weighed so I do not know if I lost any weight.  My appetite has been greatly diminished since starting the medication as well. Some days I would have a small snack and only eat one full meal because I was busy and not hungry.

I have talked to others who have hypothyroidism and are on the same type of medication as I am,  and who say the good benefits diminished with time for them.

I am really hoping that does not happen to me.

Yesterday, I walked 3.5 miles.

I made real progress on my bedroom. :) We are almost to the point of rearranging and finally decorating it!

 Last weekend, raccoons got into my chickens...who were still living on my Dad's farm... and killed 8 of them.  It was horrible. I will spare any readers details, but it was traumatizing to see my feathery friends meet such horrific ends. Raccoons will keep coming back and killing more chickens repeatedly, until the are all gone. They are very cunning hunters and can find ways into the run, you never realized were possible.  So my Dad and I decided the best course of action was to just go ahead and move them over to our new place, even though we really were not ready for them.  So, I caged them up and hauled them over here. I created a small run and covered it with tarps to keep them from flying out.  That worked well for the 3 days until my Husband could get a day off to help me build a new run.  My brother-in-law used his tractor to move the coop.  We reassembled the run here. It isn't anything like we planned, but maybe with time, I can expand it the way I had envisioned it. So, I worked on moving and reassembling the chicken coop and run.  I finished wiring in the "roof" to the chicken run (It is a a wire top to keep predators out.) We placed the chicken coop backwards to the run so we can use the big doors in the front to collect eggs and clean the coop and not have to go in and out of the run.  Due to that, the chickens had no shelter, as we have not yet cut their new door in the back for entering and exiting...so I packed the two cages we use to transport them in, and put them in the run, placed a tight fitting tarp around the cages for protection from the elements, and then...because chickens don't always sleep where you want them to... I installed two roosts high up in the run, so the chickens can sleep up top if they want to (and they did.) Next, I installed a post for my bobble head, dummy, owl to perch. He scares off predators.  Then I spent the rest of the night picking big, green, caterpillars off my tomato plants, and feeding them to the chickens. I also tied my tomato plants up and took the dogs for their nightly walk in the dusk.

I think it was a very productive day.

Today will not be as productive.

I got up at 6:30, worried about my cat Roly. She had gotten hit by a car last Friday.  I hadn't seen her for nearly 24 hours, so I got up and put food out and called the cats. She came and ate and drank and then disappeared again. She sleeps most of the time right now. I am sure she still has a pretty bad headache. She had a serious concussion, knocked some teeth out of her mouth, and skinned up her pretty face.  She also lost all use of her front right leg. She has learned to hold it up instead of dragging it, so I am hoping that signifies she has regained some control of her "elbow."  She still has not attempted to walk on it, and if she does not regain use of it, it will probably need to be amputated sometime in the future.

Later today I am taking my son to Georgetown to pick up something?  Then back home to clean up before my Husband gets home.  I still need to clean the chicken coop and bury fence to prevent animals from digging in... There is always something that needs to be done!

I forgot to mention it, but it is  beautiful day!  The breeze feels lovely.  Thank you God for such amazing peace and beauty.

Carpe Diem!